Who are you?
I used to know.
Now i know nothing, but a stranger.

(ps i miss you)

Not everyone is in this picture but i still love 10S121.

Hello.

I just watched The Pursuit of Happiness on the comp.
A lot of people said its a great movie so i decided to catch it.
My feelings are easily swayed by watching it.
Its so difficult to balance between being a good parent, good spouse, and to support the family.
Hmm its just a random thought but i want to have 4 children when im married next time. =D
Okay, provided i am able to support them.
Must increase Singapore's population.

I ask myself, why did things between us turn out to be like this now?

Hello.

Today, Sherry Kelly Joanna and I had lunch at mac.
It feels soo good to have the chance to go out of school to have lunch.
I like the school food, really. (ahahhah)
But it feels good to step out of the school compound.

We represented 10S121 to play for the trials for captain's ball and dodgeball.
The other Callisto peers were really good.
They deserved to represent Callisto for Colouseum.
I feel... disappointed in myself for not playing good.
And i think i appear fierce and rough on the court.
I didnt mean it...
I still feel really physically tired now.
I just want to sit down on my bed and read my story booooooooooook.

Perhaps tomorrow i shall shower myself with the Body Shop soap to feel good for the day?
It works on last monday.

Hello.
Today im a grumpy person. =(

I realize these days i have this tendency to express my feelings openly and easily.
I become a "verbal" person.
Which may not be good at times when i expressed feelings of annoyance, irritance that might affect other people's feelings.
When i said out loud that i got sth correct or i did pretty well for sth, i didnt mean it to come out as arrogance.
I was genuinely happy, cause getting sth better/correct is one step to an even better score.
I cant seem to pass simple tests til now.
I know i can do it, but during the test i get demoralized.
Or even those papers i think i did pretty alright, when i see my score at the end of the day, it just pulls my confidence level down.

Im really worried for myself, for how im coping with schoolwork.
Even those subjects i feel more confident bout thru out my education journey has led me down.

Hello.

I love Thursday onwards.
Yay.

You know, im trying to change my mindset bout going to school.
I dont want to hold thoughts of tiredness and dreading every footstep upon stepping into MJ.
I want to enjoy the moments here, and appreciate everything and everyone around me.
I really want to do so.
I am someone who holds on to relationship and ties pretty tightly.
As in i will do my best not to lose them, i will put in the effort.

These days im either talking A LOT or dousing off or concentrating 100% in tutorials/lectures.
Pretty extreme ends.
I have to try to balance myself.
(use spirit like in physics spa etc)
I hope i could control myself well next time.

Hello.

Something Mr Chen mentioned bout today set me thinking.
Question: How have i been treating things and the people around me these days?

Ans: I dont think im serious enough.
I feel that i am (and seen as) someone who dont treat things importantly.
I do. When i know its serious.
I care about whats happening around me.
Its up to me whether to do something bout it or not.

An April Fool's joke.

Hello.

Today I worked at a watch exhibition at Expo along with Zena, Cassandra and her friends.
Back to work society for a day!
I'm in the Adidas department.
Theres this super cool "Rolex-lookalike" gold Adidas watch and a "touch screen" Adidas watch.
My teamleader/supervivor is once again a guy who starts with N.
HAHAHAH.
Anyway, the company treated us real good with refreshment every few hours.
Yay, earn a few bucks to last my spending expediture for a while. =D

How i wish i were as jovial as before.
How i wish i were as naive as before.
How i wish i were as carefree as before.

How i wish i were not feeling that awful, realistic, paranoid as today.

Jiayi Sim
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